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Ok, so I’ve been gone for awhile. And I’ve been gaining some weight. I almost deleted my buddyslim page the other day but I realized that I need to get the 7 pounds that I’ve gained the last couple of months back off. So here I am again. I started my diet again today and I’m going to spend the next 2 or 3 weeks really focusing on getting to my goal. I also need to worry about maintaning when I get to it and not just eating whatever I want like I have been doing. I’ve been very bad! Anyway, we’ll see how I do. I guess if I could do it once I can do it again.

I went to the doctor today and guess what the scale said! 148.2 pounds!! That means I’m only 8 pounds from my goal!!!!!! Sorry, I’m excited, can you tell? Oh, my gosh I haven’t been in the 140’s since I was, like 13. Nothing could ruin my day now! What am I saying, bad drivers on the way home almost did. Ok, so almost nothing could ruin my day. I’m SO hoping to be to my goal in 2 1/2 weeks. Pretty soon I’ll just have to work on not getting back into old habits and thinking I need to “reward” myself by stuffing myself! Anyway, have a nice day guys!

So, my last blog wasn’t BS people. I’ve been very good this week! No sugar, kept my portions small, and I’m feelin good. I think its paying off. We’ll see Tuesday when I go to the doctor and get weighed. Anyhoo, I’m getting so close to my goal, I can taste it (and my reward chocolate molten cake!) so I just wanted to drop a line about my “on plan week”. And remember, if I can do it, so can you!!! Oo, and I got some new shoes today

Ok, so when I first started my weightloss journey, I was unstoppable. I controlled my portions. I didn’t snack (or graze is more like it), I stayed off the sugar. And it so worked. I’ve lost alot of weight and I’m very happy about that. Unfortunately, I’ve been slipping. My portions have gotten too large, I’m doing too much snacking, and I’ve developed a sugar habit. My weight loss has also slowed way down. I keep telling myself that I’ll get back into good habits again but I’ve realised that I’m going to have to recommit myself to my diet or I’m never going to lose the rest of the weight. So this is my official certificate of recommitment. Back to portion and snack control and NO sugar. The fact is that I cannot have a little bite here and there of chocolate. I just can’t. I’ve tried that and it turns into binging and then those all too familiar feelings of failure. So here I am, back on plan. The new, strong, ready to get to my goal weight Lacy! I know I can do it now, because I have done it. Anyway, I just needed to put it out there. I’m on my way….140 pounds (and swimsuit challenge) here I come!

I do! Well, sort of. When I started dropping a lot of weight my husband asked me if I was going to start wearing shorts. I told him no matter how much weight I lost I was never going to like my legs enough to wear shorts. HOWEVER, I went shopping on Sunday and I thought, “what the heck, I’ll try on some of these Bramuda shorts that all the kids are wearing”. I know, I sound like a Grandma in my mind. Anyway, I pulled them on thinking, “I don’t know what I’m doing. I’m gonna look so fat in these”. HOWEVER, low and behold they looked super cute! Not only that, but I came across a pair of army green shorts in my stored clothes and I tried them on with one of my new shirts and a cute pair of wedge shoes…adorable! So, that pretty much made my week and my hubby’s excited too. Anyway, I just felt like sharing. I’ll post a pic if I can get my camera to upload again. See y’all.

Ok, I weighed in today and I can’t believe what I saw! I have lost 40 pounds! That’s 4 - 0! Is this me? The girl who has never lost more than 5 pounds before? I am kind of in shock at the moment. I am only 11 pounds from my goal, although I’m thinking about changing my goal to 140. Even so, that’s only 16 pounds. I haven’t weighed what I weigh right now since I was 14 years old! And I haven’t weighed my goal weight since I was probably 12 or 13. Crazy. Anyway, part of the reason I’m posting this is to remind myself to be proud of my loss and excited about my new lifestyle because before I weighed in I was feeling down in the dumps and frustrated about my diet and not losing as much last week. I needed a slap in the face. Someone to say “Hello! Look how far you’ve come and how much you’ve changed! Doesn’t it feel good that your daughter doesn’t have a fat Mommy anymore?” So, I’m telling myself and to answer myself, “Yes, it does feel good!” Anyway, if you’re reading this just remember: Frustration is poison! Be proud of yourself and your goals will come faster and sweeter! *HUGS*

I don’t remember ever being able to say that. 20 pounds may still seem like alot but I feel like I’ve (painstakingly) come so far. Much farther than I’ve ever been able to before and I thank you all for your suppport so much!! I’m still getting a little frustrated at times that I’m not to my goal yet but I’m trying to take joy in the little things like trying on a Medium shirt! And when people notice a change. Every day is still an “I think I can” day but I’m getting through it along with all you guys and I just felt like dropping a line about it. I’ll let you know when I go out and by myself a swimsuit (not quite there yet). Thanks again everybody and have a nice weekend!!

Perhaps I should clarify.  I’ve finally lost enough weight that my BMI has moved from “obese” to “overweight”.  This may seem like a small thing because its only there by 1/10 of a % but, hey its a milestone! I am NOT OBESE!!!!  Before I know it, my BMI will say I’m the picture of health!! Anyway, that’s what’s up.  Say hello to your newly overweight buddy!  Ha!  Love you all!

Ok, so I haven’t written a post in a while. I feel like I’ve been doing this weight loss thing halfway. I’ve been losing weight, but very slowly. This week I’ve stepped up my game. I NEED to make healthier and smaller eating my new lifestyle (not just a temporary diet) or I will never lose all the weight or keep it off. I’m finally realizing this and this week I’ve been really committed and guess what! I lost 4 pounds!! Well, I just felt like sharing that I think I’ve finally found my niche and I’m so ready to get the rest of this weight off for the first time in my life. I don’t even know what I look like at a healthy weight because I’ve never been there. I have a feeling I’m about to find out. Sorry if this is rambly but I’m tired. Love you all!

Life has been put on hold this week because of the stomach flu. This is my first experience as a mom with this everyone sick at once thing. My one year old has not kept anything down and we had to go to immediate care last night. Meanwhile I broke my own 8 year no vomit record. What a mess. Anyway, I haven’t even slept this week, let alone diet and excercise. I guess I’ll just have to pick up where I left off now that everyone is finally better. Its frustrating but I don’t want to let this mess up my progress. So, ok, message to self: “I’m back on the wagon today. No excuses. I lost 11 pounds, I can keep going!” I’m just praying that the puking is done. I don’t think I can handle any more puke.